Tuesday, July 12, 2005
i had a weird dream just this morning.
i dreamt of some people im missing. and i saw him, too.
i try to occupy my mind with other stuff,
i close my eyes and concentrate on my breathing. my life is ruined.
i ruined it. i allowed this person to come along and destroy everything.
my wounds havent healed
but when will they?
i dont have much time, just a month or so
i glue myself to my computer, endlessly playing maplesea
to shut the rest of the world out
so i cant hear your voice
and cant see your faces
dont you all understand
that day i messed things up i lost a part of i
its a part i cant seem to retrieve
i want to live, ive got business i havent settled
dont you know its not that i want to give up in this final lap
but its not easy to pick myself up
it just sounds easy
you wouldnt know how much i gave
you dont know how numb i am now
ive been walking hand in hand with death, and its a lonely road
i thinnk im at the end already
coz i can see no further road
and i dont feel human anymore
11:00 PM
